things have been at a hush here lately.
i don't know how to explain it.  it's a calm before a storm, we know that.
it's a moment when fine tuning to your heart gets to take place.  and you realize why you want certain things.
for my offspring,
my husband,
my world,
and let's face it, in a way me too.

it's at that time when change happens i am forced to ask why?
and i should, it's good for my conscience, my heart.  but it's hard asking this.
what if i see something ugly?
selfish?
needy?
wanty?  that's not a word.  !!!

as i have been doing some purging in my heart,  i only have a little cleaning left.  actually, who am i kidding?  i have cobwebs and dust in there all the time, if it was a clean soul i would be perfect, and i am not that for sure.
here are some mundane, no "wow" factor for sure, pictures of the last little bit of time.

yes, that is how dirty this rug is, i didn't feel like editing!

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